The Hulk and us

We watched our recording of "The Hulk" last night. It is not really my kind of movie, but bw tends to like that genre. So we enjoyed it, while I got a few laughs out of it. But one scene in particular struck me with what may be a significant thought.

The second time Bruce turns into The Hulk, he escapes from the house imprisonment and ends up in the woods near Betty's house. She hears something and comes out at night to explore when her flashlight spans onto The Hulk. It seemed to me that his face was trying to express embarrassment and/or fear at his condition. Maybe it was just me. But there seems to be a similarity between them and us. He had become aware that there was a monster living inside him. And I thought I sensed that he was embarrassed that Betty would see the "real" Bruce. Along with that embarrassment, it seemed that he might be afraid that she would no longer accept or love him when she saw the monster hidden inside him. Still, throughout the movie the only place where he feels safe enough to relax is in her presence.

I kind of relate to that. There are hidden aspects of my life that I would be embarrassed for bw to discover. Things that, if she saw them, I fear she would no longer accept or love me. Still, the only place I really feel safe is in bw's presence. There I can let my monster(s) rest and I can be the better person I long to be.

Am I revealing to much of myself here? Well, be that as it may.

The other thing about that scene that struck me was a little confession he made. I think it came after he had fought off the monster-dogs' attack. Whenever, he admitted to Betty that at least a part of him likes it when he lets that monster out. Still, after his bouts of "monsterism," he seems to regret what he has done and who he was during those episodes. So I think he meant that while he was doing those things he found some pleasure or satisfaction in doing it.

Well, I wouldn't go so far as to say I have enjoyed my "monster" episodes. But while I was doing them, there was a degree of satisfaction. But it was mixed with shame and embarrassment and fear.

Can you relate?

Please don't condemn me for those hidden things. I suspect that a lot of people (everyone?) has been there. Isn't that part of the message in "Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde" or the movie "King Kong"?

Thank you for reading.