31 August 2007
Is it blasphemy?
Just a thought: How about if the same artist creates a holograph of Mohammed morphing into ... say... George W. Bush? See what reaction that would bring!
Well, just a thought.
Worship wars
So, 1 Corinthians 13: Among many other wonderful things Paul says there, he talks about when we were children, etc. (you know the verse). And what came to my focus was this phrase: "when I was a child...I reasoned as a child." So I paused for a moment to ask myself, "How does a child reason?" Immediately the response came: generally a child's basic point of reasoning is this: "I WANT." From the child's perspective, the fact that he/she wants something is reason enough to justify it--whether "it" be a purchase or an activity. "I want a horsey," "I want some candy," "I want that toy," "I want to go to Disneyland," or "I don't want to go to bed!" From the child's perspective, that fact that he/she wants something justifies obtaining the desire.
But why did Paul tell this to the Corinthian church? Because they were still acting like children; they still thought like children; and they still reasoned like children. And I asked myself: To what extent does the North American church still act like children? To what extent, in what ways do I still act like a child?
Then I went to my computer and had an email (a couple days old) that linked me to this article. I urge you to read it. It is a little bit long and gets a little bit bogged down in a couple places. But it was powerful for me. Read about Elizabeth, a Christian girl from SE Asia forced into prostitution, and how Psalm 27 became so meaningful to her. Or read about the pastor in India who saves his few coins over a period of time in order to buy a Christian book on discount.
Then--as I did--ask yourself about the way and spirit in which we worship and what is really important in our worship wars.
God loves you and so do I!
Oh yeah! PLEASE, please, let me know what you think.
29 August 2007
Martyrs Monument
I'll try to find out about its travel schedule, in case you want to check it out.
Basically, it honors many of the millions who gave their lives rather than deny their and our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
On that same website you also order the newly released and updated Foxe: Voice of the Martyrs. This is an updated version of the original Foxe's Book of Martyrs. This includes martyrs from the early church but also extends into contemporary times to give the witnesses of recent sacrifices for our Lord.
I hope you will at least take a look at the pictures and read about the monument.
Then tell me what you think!
BW's dissertation
Okay, I'm writing this morning to say: We are almost ready to send bw's paper! And we sincerely want your prayers at this point. This is the "proposal" for her dissertaion. She sent her first proposal a few months ago. Her mentor had a lot of suggestions/instructions for changes. He basically told her to take this process more seriously. So she has done so. Virtually all summer (except for our brief trip to Crater Lake), she has spent dawn to after dusk working on this. I have spent the last few days editing and re-editing it. A few moments ago, I emailed my latest re-work back to her for final adjustments.
Soooooo, all of that to say: We are on target to get this off this week: Friday at the latest; hopefully sooner. She will send an e-version of it. But we also have to send a hard copy. So that will go in a secured system of getting it there by snail mail. Fortunately, this snail flies!
Anyway, we are asking for your sincere, diligent and faith-filled prayers for the following:
- That the hard copy will get to Manila's de la Salle University safely and expeditiously;
- That her mentor, Dr. Danny Dayag, will look favorably on her efforts and will approve her proposal;
- That the expected shipment of newspapers we have requested will arrive soon, so that bw can start tabulating, etc.
Okay, I think that about covers it for now.
hasta la vista baby!
28 August 2007
Interesting lesson
Thank you Shawn, for the helpful article on how to link this.
Enjoy reading and thanks for the help!
Lunar Eclipse
I particularly like the one below because it clearly shows the shadow of the earth along with a tree branch to give a little "texture."Then we went back to bed and pretty soon bw was making those wonderful sleeping noises! (No, she does not really snore; she just kind of purrs.) Meanwhile, I had already slept my mandatory 3 hours. So my mind would not let me get any more sleep. Finally I got up again around 2:45 and took this next shot.
I think this last one is kind of neat because the earth's shadow is almost complete. I went out again at 3:20, when "they" said the eclipse would be full. But conditions were not right for me to get a shot of that. The moon had gone behind the trees across the street from our house. Plus the eclipse was so complete that the camera would not have detected what it was supposed to photograph. So I didn't even try at that point. I just enjoyed the glimpse and wondered what less scientific societies thought (or think) about such events.
Hope you enjoyed the pics!
25 August 2007
The Church
Bw & I drove into Portland in the afternoon--Ikea recently opened its doors there. We had arranged to meet my nephew & niece for dinner downtown in the evening. We had a very enjoyable dinner together and afterward took a brief walk to the waterfront to show them the Willamette River and tell a little bit about the flood of '96 (doesn't that make me sound like an old-timer?). We left them there at the river and started back home.
We have a regular practice of praying in the car as we drive home through the (spectacular) Columbia River Gorge--especially when it is dark, which it was by the time we started home. Whenever we pray--whether at home or in the car--we ask God that his Holy Spirit guide us in our prayers that we would pray about the things He is concerned about and that we would pray toward what He wants to accomplish.
Well, we had prayed along this way for a while. I don't remember all that we prayed about: family members, country leaders, missionaries. Then when it came my turn again, it seemed that God reminded me to pray for the church, specifically the church in the US.
Actually, the prayer began as mourning over the immorality and materialism that we see every time we go into the city. Granted, these are seen here in HR as well, but in less obvious, less "in-your-face" ways. But in Pdx it seems that increasingly people are trying to outdo each other with how revealing their clothes can be (for females) and how outrageous they can appear (for males). This comes on top of the materialism demonstrated at places like Ikea, et al.
Well, I began there with mourning for a society that seems hell-bent on bending to the breaking point all the boundaries and norms that God wants for people who claim his blessing. Somehow this just seemed to flow naturally into a prayer for the church in the US. I think the link was that many of these same people would think of themselves as "normal" Christians. But if that is "normal" then what does it mean to be Christian? Probably it's time to drop that term and claim something like "Christ-follower" instead. Anyhoooo...
I started praying for the church in the US. And the verse from Micah 6:8 came to me:
"He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God."
Well, each time I said that phrase, "I pray for the church in the US," each time I said that, became more moved than the time before. By the time I got to the need for the church's humility, I had difficulty speaking because God's Spirit was confirming in my spirit that this was indeed his prayer. And he was simply voicing his prayer through my lips.
Well, as some people say: "From your lips to God's ear!"
Then this morning's Bible study took me to 1 Corinthians 5 & 6, where Paul talks about immorality in the church and lawsuits between believers. But that is for another post (if that).
What do you think?
24 August 2007
Korean hostages
This is a video clip from Korean television news following the Korean hostages, serving in mercy work in Afghanistan and now being held by the Taliban.
Let me know if it works, please.
Eritrea
Please pray for the persecuted church around the world. For more info on what is happening to our believing family (of all stripes), go to http://www.persecution.com/.
God's best to you!
Bible Study, 1 Corinthians
More and more churches or even small home groups seem to pattern themselves after the Corinthian church. Now they don't call themselves the "Corinthian Church of [whatever]." So the imitation or intentionality is not as obvious as, for example, "The Berean Baptist Church," or the "Berean Sunday School Class," in which presumably the attendees take as their example a group who diligently studied the Word. Nevertheless, more and more churches seem to justify their practices because Paul talks about it in the Cornithian letters.
Well, I just have this to say about that:
At least in 1 Corinthians, everything Paul says is written in a spirit of correction. He does not name a single thing about which the Corinthians can pat themselves on the back. In fact, that is one of his issues with them: They have already done too much patting of themselves on the backs.
Even his opening greetings, in which he gives thanks to God for the Corinthian believers, is laced (it seems to me) with sarcasm or at least a hint of warning of the corrections to come. "...you have been enriched" and "you do not lack any spiritual gift" jump out at me. Add those phrases to the fact that in the opening 9 verses Paul mentions Jesus Christ 9 times in 9 verses. And (again it seems to me) that he makes a special point of using the phrase "the Lord Jesus Christ" to hammer home that their church and their faith and their religious practices are not about the Corinthians. It is all about "the Lord Jesus Christ."
Having given this brief "thanksgiving" (such as it is), he launches into the first of several points of correction: Boasting. I won't go into all the things about which they boasted; you can read that yourself. But clearly these people gave more attention to what they were doing, or to their own spiritual superiority than to what God was doing and His supremacy.
So the next time you're reading or studying 1 Corinthians, keep this in mind: Everything he says there is written in the spirit of correction. Their worship patterns were not something Paul commends: It brought (and brings) pride, boasting, licentiousness, permisiveness, and division.
What do you think?
Iraq persecution
Christian Persecution in Iraq on the Rise - Christian Broadcasting Network
News Christians in Iraq are experiencing a rise in persecution from Islamic
extremists. According to a Christian Broadcasting Network News (CBNNews.com) report, Reverend Canon Andrew White, an Anglican minister from Baghdad, told a committee on religious freedom that Christians have been kidnapped, tortured and killed. Rev. White said in the last three to four months conditions in Iraq had deteriorated considerably. He added that he was given disturbing news at a congregational meeting this month. "Things are bad for everybody in Iraq. I said to them (church members), 'tell me what has happened over the past week.' And the
people went through what had happened, and I realized that 36 of my congregation
in that past week and been kidnapped. None of them have been returned," Reverend White said. Pray God protects and encourages Christians in Iraq. Ask God to send the Holy Spirit to refresh believers who face hardships everyday. Romans 8:31, Isaiah 54:17
It might be tempting to consider this just part of the civil disturbances associated with the war in that country. But I would suggest that when 36 members of one congregation have been kidnapped inside one week, that involves an intentional targeting.
I hope you will join me in prayer for our brothers and sisters in Christ who pay a high price for faithfulness to the Name.
21 August 2007
Corruption in Congress
Tell me if this link works: http://www.humanevents.com/article.php?id=21922
No, I am not surprised at such pranks. But I hope you are as upset about them as I am.
20 August 2007
Bible Study, Ruth
For one thing, we forget that Ruth is a foreigner: a Moabitess. The text mentions this repeatedly. But I often forget it. And she becomes the great-grandmother of King David. That means that the greatest king of Israel was not pure Hebrew/Israelite. Imagine a country that placed extreme importance on purity of ancestry. South Africa, before the abolition of apartheid, comes to mind. Then imagine a candidate in that country running for president. But said candidate is of mixed race. Never mind that he is only 1/8 black. The fact that he is not pure white would have automatically disqualified him for any national position. He could not have even voted, much less run for election. That is somewhat comparable to David's position when he started his campaign to become king of Israel.
Another thing from this story came out in the section I studied this morning: There is a significant age difference between Boaz and Ruth. Have you noticed this in chapter 3? When Ruth lies at Boaz's feet and he wakes up, he commends her that she did not run after younger men, whether rich or poor. Instead, she has offered her youth and beauty to this older man. I'm having difficulty placing my finger on what it is about that detail that touches me. But as an older man, I can somewhat relate.
Then I also notice the moral uprightness of both Ruth and Boaz. I've heard others comment that by her lying at his feet, she had already placed him in a compromising position. I don't accept that view. I see it as her simply offering herself to him. She was simply saying--in a culturally appropriate method--that she was available to him, if he was interested. He made it clear that he was indeed interested. But he had to follow correct, morally approved, practices. he did not touch her that night. But he took immediate steps the next day to clear the way so that he could take her as his wife.
I know that a lot of people like the story because of Ruth's statement in chapter 1, "Where you go I will go... and your God will be my God." But that is not a statement of romantic love. That is a decision to identify herself with the people of [the true] God. By contrast, when she lies at Boaz's feet, she places her reputation on the line to allow this godly man to take her into his life.
And as they say, the rest is history!
Thank you for reading.
15 August 2007
Jehovah's Witnesses, 2
The New World [Mis-]Translation (that used by the JWs) of Judges 13 consistently refers to the heavenly being who appeared to Samson's mother and subsequently his father Manoah as "Jehovah's angel." But as I understand it, the OT consistently uses different terms in this regard. When it refers to just any angel, that being is called "an angel of the LORD." But we find interesting occurrences when a different turn of the phrase is used. Sometimes we read, "The angel of the LORD." On these occasions, we see consistent differences. These are seen clearly in this account.
Perhaps the best place to direct a JW's attention in the chapter would be the passage that starts at verse 15. The following is copied directly from their on-line version of the New World [Mis-]Translation: "15 Ma·no´ah now said to Jehovah’s angel: 'Let us, please, detain you and fix up a kid of the goats before you.' 16 But Jehovah’s angel said to Ma·no´ah: 'If you detain me, I shall not feed myself on your bread; but if you will render up a burnt offering to Jehovah, you may offer it up.' For Ma·no´ah did not know that he was Jehovah’s angel." So Manoah prepared a burnt offering and grain offering for Jehovah. Then we read: "19 And Ma·no´ah proceeded to take the kid of the goats and the grain offering and to offer it upon the rock to Jehovah. And He was doing something in a wonderful way while Ma·no´ah and his wife were looking on. 20 So it came about that, as the flame ascended from off the altar heavenward, then Jehovah’s angel ascended in the flame of the altar while Ma·no´ah and his wife were looking on. At once they fell upon their faces to the earth."
Now I don't currently have a reference for the following, but I have noticed in other references to "regular" angels that when a human suggests either offering a sacrifice to the heavenly being or in any way starts to worship this creature, the angel immediately refuses the sacrifice and/or worship. Not so in this case. This Being clearly accepts the sacrifice, even ascending to heaven in the flame of the sacrifice.
Even JW's own mistranslation admits this statement from Manoah: "22 Consequently Ma·no´ah said to his wife: “We shall positively die, because it is God that we have seen.” Manoah recognized that the sequence of events pointed to the appearance of Jehovah God. He knew that no other being would have accepted this sacrifice. That is why he feared for his life.
Well, these distinctions come out much more clearly in the more accurate translations used by Christians. But if you want to engage the JWs, it may prove more effective to use their own mis-translation, since they would not accept as valid the translations we believers prefer.
P.S.: A similar pattern can be found in Judges 6, where "The Angel of the LORD" appears and commissions Gideon. In our translations, the terms "Angel of the LORD" and "the LORD" are used interchangeably. [If you're not already familiar with the use of LORD in all caps in the OT, it is used to refer specifically to Jehovah God.]
Well, may you be well-armed the next time JWs knock at your door. I hope you will greet them joyfully and then boldly and confidently open to them the truth from God's word!
Thank you for reading. What do you think?
13 August 2007
New Vacation Pics
Oooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrr, you can go to: http://travel.webshots.com/album/559410488lnKKSj?start=24. Then our beautiful pics start just a couple rows down and they continue on to succeding pages.
Enjoy!
Worship yesterday
I have been praying that God would touch my soul afresh. I have become increasingly aware that it has been a long time since I really sensed God's presence with me. I have been walking in a dry, desert place for quite some time. I know God is with me. And my faith has not faltered. But once in a while (at the least) we just need to sense God's presence. And that is what I confessed to God and what I prayed for.
Well, their first service was a traditional Presbyterian service. Great organ music and good congregational singing. And I gave my 5 minute presentation (actually probably stretched it into 6 minutes). But the second service was more relaxed. And during the singing of praise choruses, God came to me afresh. He did not overpower me with his presence. But I sensed an assurance of his continued faithfulness through the choruses we sang. Now we have been in enough different fellowships recently, that I feel confident in saying it was not the choruses per se that did anything special--although they sang a good selection of them. But God chose to use the ones we sang as a conduit for revealing his presence with me once more.
I'm not satisfied with that however. I still pray that he will speak to me more and draw me into his presence more clearly and more fully--whatever that means.
So I'm just sharing this to give thanks and praise to God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit--Three in One.
11 August 2007
Jehovah's Witnesses
As a result, I keep one section of my thoughts alert to evidence from the Bible that contradicts their teachings. Of course, when I check out their "translation" (read: "mis-translation") of the Bible, I almost always see that they have changed key words or phrases to fit their predetermined theology. Still, I enjoy the process and any time they knock on my door, I gladly welcome them and invite them inside (they have yet to accept the invitation).
My favorite verse to point to them is John 8:58-59, "'I tell you the truth,' Jesus answered, 'before Abraham was born, I am!' At this, they picked up stones to stone him, but Jesus hid himself, slipping away from the temple grounds." Their mistranslation changes it to read: "Jesus said to them: 'Most truly I say to YOU, Before Abraham came into existence, I have been.' 59 Therefore they picked up stones to hurl [them] at him; but Jesus hid and went out of the temple." The key change being the switch from "I am" to "I have been." But I point out to them that the original clearly uses the simple present form of the verb. (Bw helps me here with her understanding of English grammar: Simple present means a state of being, viz., always in that state. In other words in this claim, Jesus is claiming that he is always in the state of being, which is to say he is the Eternal One.) In addition, this terminology uses a specific form that the Jewish translators of the OT had chosen to use when Jehovah spoke to Moses at Mt. Horeb. (The Greek is "ego eimi.") If Jesus had intended to say "I have been," he would have used a different tense of the verb instead of "eimi." And if he had simply intended to convey his existence before and since Abraham, he would have only said "eimi" and not used the pronoun "ego." But the Jewish translators of the OT, when they came to Moses' conversation at the burning bush (and subsequently), they used the phrase "ego eimi." When Moses asked, "Who should I tell the Hebrews has sent me," God told him to tell them "ego eimi" has sent him. Centuries later, Jesus chose this exact phrase to identify himself as the one who spoke to Moses from the bush.
{BTW: [Bw just read this and added this observation: the phrase "I have been" from the JW version is in the present perfect tense. This means--according to their version--that Jesus was claiming that there was a time when he came into being, there was a starting point for his being, and that he continues to exist even to the present.] This is consistent with their theology that God (they say [true]God; we say God the Father) existed eternally, but that the Son of God came into being before anything else was created.}
Then I point out to the (by-now-speechless) JWs that it becomes clear from the reaction of the Pharisees that they understood his words as a claim to be Jehovah, the Eternal One. That is why they picked up stones to stone him to death.
Well, you can imagine how quickly the JWs are ready to leave my door! Unfortunately, they don't come back to my home again (which is what many people want). Maybe that is why God keeps me moving from one home to another. LOL
I started this post with the intention of working through the story of the announcement of the birth of Samson. It is an incredible testimony to the pre-incarnation physical appearance of God the Son and the parents' recognition of him as God and his natural acceptance of burnt offering sacrifice only to be given to God. But I will have to explore that in a separate post. This one has gone on too long already.
What do you think?
Thank you for reading.
09 August 2007
Home at Last
Okay, these pics are from when we left Grandma/Mom this morning. First we trimmed the hedge in the front of her house as well as the one infringing on the back fence. Then we dumped those cuttings. And then we were ready to leave. So these pics show Mom and Winky saying goodbye.
But if you look closely here, you can see that Winky is sad (to see us leave?). But if you look even closer, you can see that Mom is smiling or laughing (again to see us leave????).
Thanks for reading and for the feedback along the way.
08 August 2007
Back in Newport
After a little looking and asking (never believe the lie that men won't ask directions), we found the park I wanted to sample: Lithia Park. It is in downtown Ashland with a lovely stream flowing through it, shade trees and picnic tables and other amenities. We did not walk very far. Basically, I had just wanted to see the stream because elsewhere on the internet I had seen pictures. So bw (above) made brave and climbed onto a rock that sat a little way into the water so I can photograph her.
07 August 2007
Klamath Falls evening
Still the pelicans are a long distance away. You can also see the evening lights reflecting across the water.
Next, you can see that one of the pelicans swam over closer to us. I was a bit more excited than usual, because while I've seen brown pelicans before, I've only seen pictures of the white variety.
Meanwhile, the city provides some fountains in the lake and at night these are lighted. This particular fountain has colored lights. And the pelican (from previous pic) swam into the reflection of the light (below).
Today we are off to Ashland. We will forego any more bird searches. It's about a 6 hour drive to Newport. But we should have not trouble making that. Hope to report back from there later this evening.
Thanks for reading!
Crater Lake, Day 2
This morning we drove back up the mountain to see a little of the other parts of the park. The only walk we went on was a 1 mile stroll called Godfrey Glen Trail (do you know how that hurts me to spell it that way?). The trail goes along the rim of a canyon of sorts. This first pic shows a little of the canyon in the background.
Crater Lake 2
One of the first features they showed us was this below: "The Devil's Backbone," which was formed by a crack in the original volcanoes which allowed lava to rise and cool slowly making it much harder than the surrounding laval. So when the mountain imploded, these firmer walls remained.
This next one is one of many shots I took of the "Phantom Ship," an island formation that also resulted from a crack in the original volcanoes.
After it was all over, we made it to the top (below). The sign behind us says it should take about 30 minutes to get down (we did not time that one). And it should take 40 minutes getting back up. Well, it took us 46 minutes (yes, we timed it). So we were pretty proud of ourselves. Mom's heart acted a little fussy right at the start. But then it calmed down and we made it with several brief stops along the way. As usual, Mom got there before I did. But I was just a couple steps behind her. When we get home, I'll put the rest of the pics on webshots.
06 August 2007
Crater Lake
Then the next pic is one I took looking down at the lake from the place where bw took my pic.
Day one of our trip
So, these are a couple pics we (I) took at a view point en route. Hopefully, I/we'll have opportunity for more and better pics today. We will make our first foray into Crater Lake National Park. Then tonight we will land at a motel in Klammath Falls. I'll try to post more then.
But right now the natives are getting restless for breakfast. So I'll sign off for now.
Thank you for reading!
04 August 2007
Teen rudeness
Well, last night bw and I faced a similar situation. We went for a walk in the late evening. We realized after we left our house that it was "first Friday." This is a time in our town when the downtown stores stay open late, street vendors and musicians come out, the main streets are closed and crowds of people just walk around and socialize. It has become so popular over the years that the number of pedestrians becomes quite sizable. It happened that our walk occurred just after the street barriers had been taken down. So now these crowds of people were restricted to the sidewalks. Bw and I have talked about these situations in the past. So by our agreement, when we approached a situation in which we could not walk side-by-side, she would step behind me. Still there were a few times last night when things got fairly crowded. These two events occurred:
The first involved a group of young ladies approaching us. Bw stepped behind me. But I would not budge. We had already formed our single file so that the 2 groups could pass without incident. But the second girl in the group approaching would not move over. So I kept my left shoulder firm and just walked straight ahead. After our shoulders bumped, I heard her behind me say, "Ouch!" as if I should not have done that to her. I ignored her cry and just kept walking. Admittedly, this was not the most Christlike thing I have ever done. But I'm tired of young people acting as if the rest of the world should make way for them--literally or figuratively. We are clearly the elders in these situations. Someone should have taught them some manners, like respecting people who are older, even if they are not infirm.
The second event occurred shortly afterward. We approached an area even more crowded than the first. This time only one line could squeeze through at a time. Bw again went behind me. But we approached the narrow spot at the same time a group of young men came from the opposite direction. Just before my shoulder hit the lead guy, I heard him say, "F___ out of my way." Well, I did not "F___" out of his way. And our shoulders hit again, though not as firmly as the first incident. Apparently, he decided at the last second that his shoulder was more valuable than his vanity or anger or whatever.
Then to cap it all off, as we headed down a side street to start our circuit back home, we merged with another group of young people coming from another direction. We ended up going the same way. But just as we were approaching this third group of young people, I heard one of the young men (obviously concluding a story he had been telling) say, "Their parents should teach their children some f_______ manners." Well, I almost laughed out loud at the irony. Another lady, maybe a little older than I, turned around and chuckled to herself at the rudeness of his speech in light of what I had said. But bw and I just merged into the foot traffic and headed back home.
Well, as crudely as this last fellow said it, he is right: Someone/parents should teach their children some manners.
What do you think?
Thank you for reading.
P.S.: Oh yeah, and don't tell me we were just as rude when we were that age, because generally speaking we were not.
03 August 2007
The Transfiguration
http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/special/transfiguration/1.1.html
Shows different depictions of the Transfiguration.
The original article that introduces the slide show is here:
http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2007/augustweb-only/131-52.0.html
That's all for now.
The Hulk and us
The second time Bruce turns into The Hulk, he escapes from the house imprisonment and ends up in the woods near Betty's house. She hears something and comes out at night to explore when her flashlight spans onto The Hulk. It seemed to me that his face was trying to express embarrassment and/or fear at his condition. Maybe it was just me. But there seems to be a similarity between them and us. He had become aware that there was a monster living inside him. And I thought I sensed that he was embarrassed that Betty would see the "real" Bruce. Along with that embarrassment, it seemed that he might be afraid that she would no longer accept or love him when she saw the monster hidden inside him. Still, throughout the movie the only place where he feels safe enough to relax is in her presence.
I kind of relate to that. There are hidden aspects of my life that I would be embarrassed for bw to discover. Things that, if she saw them, I fear she would no longer accept or love me. Still, the only place I really feel safe is in bw's presence. There I can let my monster(s) rest and I can be the better person I long to be.
Am I revealing to much of myself here? Well, be that as it may.
The other thing about that scene that struck me was a little confession he made. I think it came after he had fought off the monster-dogs' attack. Whenever, he admitted to Betty that at least a part of him likes it when he lets that monster out. Still, after his bouts of "monsterism," he seems to regret what he has done and who he was during those episodes. So I think he meant that while he was doing those things he found some pleasure or satisfaction in doing it.
Well, I wouldn't go so far as to say I have enjoyed my "monster" episodes. But while I was doing them, there was a degree of satisfaction. But it was mixed with shame and embarrassment and fear.
Can you relate?
Please don't condemn me for those hidden things. I suspect that a lot of people (everyone?) has been there. Isn't that part of the message in "Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde" or the movie "King Kong"?
Thank you for reading.
02 August 2007
Bible study, Gideon
Actually, a couple things hit me here: First, and this has been noted many times: God said he could not defeat the Midianites and their allies with 32,000 men. Well, technically God could have done so. But he chose not to because that goes against a major operating principle he holds. Specifically, God only works a miracle when he will get the credit. When the odds against God are so great that the only way a positive outcome can be reached is with his help, then--and only then--will he act. This principle guides me when I pray for miracles. I ask questions like: "Have we humans exhausted our resources?" "Is there nothing else that can be done to solve, resolve or overcome the problem?" When it becomes clear that unless God acts nothing good will come, then I can pray in faith that God will act--if it is his will.
But the second thing that hit me (and this was the new or renewed thought) was this: Gideon's men did not actually attack the Midianite camp. Have you noticed that before? They simply stood on the hillside around the enemy and blew their trumpets and smashed their jars and held up their torches and shouted. Then, when the people had done what they could, God acted. He threw fear into the hearts of the Midianites, et al. The rest of the story involves the Israelites chasing and catching the enemy. But God had already acted and brought the miracle.
What do I need God to do in my life today? (I know the answer to that for myself. What about you?) Have I truly done all in my power? If so, am I looking for God to step in and do the impossible?
What do you think?
01 August 2007
Butterflies
With bw at home for the summer, I've been going out occasionally to do my reading. I could do it at home, but I tend to get distracted. So I drive to 1 of 3 nearby rest area/state parks. I read a while; then I walk in the woods a while; then I read some more.
So is it just that I've been in the woods more? Or is it really a change? I've been seeing more butterflies this year than in recent years. Mostly, I see them when I'm in the woods. But I'm also seeing them here around the house. It's curious, because I don't recall seeing so many of them in years past.
Just wondering....
Thanks for reading.

